i'm tired. i have nothing left to give. my children are making me eat. i'm fired from my job, but my last day isn't until this friday. they took away my email, so my hands are tied to the chair while i try to train a drug-addicted woman to replace me.
today she brought in knitting; a scarf she'd started. she let me "play with it," and i spent 6 hours knitting while answering her questions. i said, 'you brought this in for me, didn't you? you saw me programming Micah's Blackberry on Friday and you saw how calm I was.' she said, 'well you said you'd done it as a child and i know i'd go crazy if i just sat there all day.'
there were about 2" of knitting on the needles when i began, and by tonight there was about 10" of a scarf.
my hands are sore from knitting.
she suggested i buy my own needles tonight and some yarn and i could knit my own scarf tomorrow.
she understood my frantic need to do something with my hands even when i didn't.
what is that? ADHD? why do i calm down when my hands and mind are occupied?
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